March 14, 2009, 10:34 p.m.
Number of Facebook, Twitter, and Gmail posts in which I’ve mentioned “my private island:” about three dozen above and beyond however many would qualify me as being obnoxious
Times I thought I saw a crocodile coming to munch on me and my sit-on-top kayak: 4
Number of down pillows that might be missing from Cayo Espanto tomorrow afternoon: 2 (I don’t need to be greedy)
I’ve found the roll to which all other rolls should aspire. Light, yet heavy enough I could push press it. I’ll have to do about an hour of push-presses to make up for the dinner I’m eating right now. On my private deck. On my private island (at least for the night). I’ll miss lots of things about Cayo Espanto when I leave tomorrow; one of them will definitely be writing, “my private island.”
But back to the yeasty contradiction I am presently savoring every crumb of. It’s substantial yet fluffy, feathery even. The inside is soft and, to use pretentious food-speak enrobed in a just-so crust. And of course, like the cookies that Butler David brought to me post-kayak adventure this afternoon, it’s warm. Which is key since the butter is quite cold and would be unspread-able otherwise. But this roll, or rather, Roll (it deserves a capital “R” if anything does) is the first I’ve encountered during my lifetime of roll connoisseurship that is not a vehicle for butter but rather a creation that butter has the good fortune to grace.
They’ve actually given me two rolls. And I could eat the second one (whether now or for dessert). But I won’t. I’ve already finished a bowl of a wonderfully sharp tomato soup and have grilled shrimp with three-pepper slaw, blackened snapper, and a real dessert still to come. But wait. I can eat it for first breakfast tomorrow. I’m planning on getting up with the sunrise to 1) enjoy it and then 2) to jump on an elliptical machine (hey, they have it pretty much sitting on a beach, so it’s not nearly as bad as it sounds) so I can enjoy a slice of cinnamon roll French toast for second breakfast without guilt. And then my plan is to squeeze in another kayak adventure before my 10 o’clock massage. I left a few mangrove forests unexplored during today’s kayak outing. (Are they mangrove forests or swamps? Because there certainly is no forest floor beneath their barnacled roots.) Do Belize’s mangroves – be they forests or swamps – provide homes for crocodiles? If I were a crocodile, I’d want to live in there. Looks like lots of fun places to play. And sleep. And hide so you can pounce on clueless sit-on-top kayakers and eat them up before they know what hit them.
Oh, I’m already excited for tomorrow’s first breakfast. I marry that Roll if I could. How can flour, water, and yeast taste so good? Sorry Kelly, but even your rolls come second to this one.
But let’s get back to the crocodiles for a moment. Well, not the crocodiles themselves, but other scary water-living things. This wasn’t always the case, but, at least since reaching adulthood, I have problems walking barefoot in any non-pool body of water. Unless I can see bottom and said bottom is very clearly sandy and without pointy, bite-y, claw-y thingies scurrying about, I’ve got something on my feet. But one thing I’ve never worried about lying in wait for me in the water? Sea lice. At least I haven’t worried about sea live until now. Sorry, but what the fuck are sea lice? Other than scary looking.
You want to go swimming with this thing?
Cayo Espanto has a remote controlled mosquito abatement system that sprays some chrysanthemum-based concoction into the air at the touch of a button; yet the beautiful water that would give Catherine Zeta-Jones’ emerald green eyes a run for their money and that is ebbing and flowing directly underneath the chair I’m now sitting in and the bed I’ll later be laying in is evidently a potential home to sea lice. I’m sorry, but the Jellyfish Sting Protective Lotion (“Helps prevent stings from jellyfish and sea lice”) sitting on the bathroom countertop next to the Lady Primrose Celadon shampoo and lotion just doesn’t cut it.
I might have managed to get lost in San Pedro’s six-block “downtown” this morning, but I wasn’t born yesterday. The lice I’ve heard about are not dissuaded from taking up residence by lotion.
Oh. My. Friggin. Fraggin. Shitballs. I might have to marry my blackened snapper too. All right. That sounds a little dirty. It’s not though. The blackened snapper in question is my entrée. And it’s just arrived. And I’ll marry the bed of jalapeno polenta the snapper has so tantalizingly set itself upon too. Okay. I need to figure out how to keep some of the snapper/polenta for first breakfast tomorrow too. Did I mention I spirited away the second Roll the last time Butler David disappeared? (FYI, I’m eating all my meals on the deck of my private villa, which is on my private island (for the night), so it’s not like I’m hoarding a Roll in my pocket. I would if I had to though.) Crap it sucks Brian isn’t here. Although I have no doubt that 1) he’d have room enough for his entire dinner and 2) he’d want the portions of mine that I’m trying to save for tomorrow.
Butler David – Cayo Espanto’s official term is Houseman; Butler just rolls off my tongue better — is going to wonder how the hell I can eat so much. But before I can hoard the snapper and polenta for tomorrow’s first breakfast, I need him to leave. Because really, if I eat another bite now I’m going to explode. And I can’t stop eating until it’s no longer in front of me. Must hoard now. It’s like I’m the Death Star and the blackened snapper and jalapeno polenta are caught in my force field. Hey, that’s a pretty good analogy. Equally dorky and true.
Sometimes food is just too good for it’s own good. Or for my stomach’s own good. Big time.
All right. David finished battening down all the villa’s shutters and it looks like I’ve got a vacuum where one would think my mouth is. Blackened snapper and polenta in a little glass in my mini fridge. Right next to the Roll.
Oh my God. I’m still going to explode. And I’ve got some sort of sure-to-be over-the-top key lime dessert coming. I remember there was more to it than key lime – maybe some kind of curd-y something too? – but the details are buried somewhere beneath layers of Roll, tomato soup, grilled shrimp, blackened snapper, and jalapeno polenta.
Oh. My. God. It’s three things. A key lime tart. A key lime curd-y thing in a ramekin. And a, um, I don’t know. Some sort of devastatingly delicious drink-y thing that I could down in one
Key lime, three ways. All yummy. Although some yummier than others.
swig but which I won’t because I’m sure it’ll send me running to the bathroom. If I want to squeeze all this goodness in — and of course I do — I had better do it slowly. Bite. Breathe. Bite. Breathe. Breathe. Bite.
So the variation in the ramekin, although the curd-y part is much better than anything with “curd” in its name deserves to be, isn’t worth exploding my stomach over. But holy fuck. I’ve never had sorbet this good. I wonder if it’s available in IV form? It’d beat an infusion of steroids any day.
Now I must roll into bed, dreaming of my Roll of course.
What I can't eat at dinner tonight makes for a great first breakfast tomorrow.
My private cookies.
My private dinner.